alright, so I realize that I’ve been missing in action. but there’s a lot going on.

let me give you the run down.

recently, I just signed a management contract. I have a lot of stuff on my plate and I need some official representation to make sure that I’m not getting dicked over by people who are presenting me with opportunities that might not fly. there’s a couple of things that could possibly be in the works. from radio stuff, possibly doing some TV commentary, some reality TV spots, guest writing for magazines… just a slew of things. and so I very much understand my buddy brook’s dilemma and I’m not even writing a damn book.

and of course I’ve been busy with the concreteloop.com stuff. after all, it’s my livelihood. it’s what I do to get paid. and so that always comes first. I gotta make sure I keep things constant over there with my music posting.

I’ve been taking a lot of meetings. and it’s a good thing. I’m trying to make sure I secure myself a spot in this industry as a front-runner for 2010. because that’s what next year is all about. forward progression, making things happen and making my dreams come true. I want to be able to have as much stuff as possible to post about on this blog and the only way I’m going to do it is if I keep the ball rolling with life.

so now that you know what’s going on with the business side, I suppose it’s time for me to shed some light with what’s been going on with me personally. sigh. I mean, that’s what this blog is, right? a personal blog? I guess everything can’t be light and airy, and I have to address things that are going on in my life.

I miss my baby. so much. it’s hard because I’m not used to spending so much time apart. but I realize that both us need to get things done. but I got so used to having my significant other here with me all summer, and now it’s like… I’m going withdrawal. cold turkey. I don’t wake up with some next to me anymore, I don’t get goodbye kisses or hugs. I don’t get to play with anyone’s hair while I wait to go to sleep. I don’t get to hold anybody’s hand. and it’s just an adjustment that I’ve had to make. and as much as I hate it, I guess absence really does sometimes make the heart grow fonder?

honestly, I didn’t know that I could be more fond than I already was.

the weather is changing. so that means I’ve got to change whatever effect I was giving over the summer time. to be completely honest, most of the time, I was pretty much naked. shorts and t-shirts. and as I’ve gotten more comfortable with myself and my body image, I’ve slipped into showing off my arms anymore. so that meant tanktops. I’m have a hard time shifting into the cooler months because all of my really cute stuff is summer stuff. go figure.

which is why this management contract with these great people is going to come into play soon. I need to be making more money than I am with the things that I’m doing. 2010 is not about free work. you’re not a professional if you’re not getting paid for the work that you’re doing. and I hope all of my friends and family are following that motto too.

but aside from that, I’ve been good. just know that there are big things coming and that I am working really hard. don’t worry, more pictures and blog entries are coming. I’m sorry for bullshitting you guys.